I’m Not Supposed to Know This

An Unlikely Account of Ground Zero After the 9/11 Attacks

In the aftermath of September 11, 2001, Emmy Award–winning sound editor Solange Schwalbe entered Ground Zero as a contractor—one of only a few women working deep inside the pit of where the Twin Towers once stood. What she witnessed there would forever reshape her understanding of service, fear, and what it means to endure.

This memoir captures the recovery effort from the inside: the quiet rituals of honor, the relentless search, and the untold moments that history never recorded. Through scenes never before shared, Solange reveals a Ground Zero few have seen—where grief was constant, strength was silent, and humanity persisted amid ruin.

Interwoven with her personal journey is the redemptive spirit of America itself—a nation wounded yet unbroken, learning how to stand again. Written with emotional restraint and cinematic clarity, this is not only a story of spectacle, but also of both personal and collective resilience—and of what rises when everything familiar has fallen.

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ISBN: 979-8-90026-103-4
Imprint: Amplify Publishing
SKU: 18-1599-01
Categories:Amplify Publishing, Memoirs and Biographies

Solange Schwalbe

Emmy-Winning Motion Picture Sound Editor and Ground Zero Rescue Worker

Solange Schwalbe is an Emmy Award–winning sound editor whose career in Hollywood spanned more than three decades. A graduate of UCLA’s School of Theater, Film and Television, she began her work in feature films in 1981, contributing to major projects including Black Hawk Down—winner of the Academy Award for Best Sound—and HBO’s John Adams, for which she and her team won the Emmy Award for Best Sound Editing.

In the aftermath of September 11, 2001, Solange set aside her film career to serve as a volunteer and later a safety monitor at Ground Zero in New York City, working in the Pit for four months alongside firefighters, police officers, and construction crews. Known affectionately as “Hollywood” by her fellow workers, she was one of only four women serving in the Pit out of more than 1,500 responders. Her time at Ground Zero profoundly reshaped her life, redirecting her focus from ambition to service.

Today, Solange lives in South Lake Tahoe, California, where she teaches at Lake Tahoe Community College and stays active in her community. A longtime member of the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences and the Motion Picture Sound Editors, she continues to speak, write, and advocate for remembrance of the sacrifices made at Ground Zero. When not teaching or writing, she can be found spending time with her dogs and exploring the outdoors—skiing, hiking, and off-roading in the Sierra Nevada, the landscape she now calls home.

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